Omg. I graduate from college on Saturday. I thought I would have quit nursing school by now, but I have made it to the end of those last four torturous years. YES! I couldn’t be any happier! 

I’m so glad that after May 10, I won’t ever have to see more than half of my classmates ever again. I hated how exclusive and cliquish the other students were in my major. It made it hard for me to make friends, and it seriously felt like I was back in high school all over again with the gossiping and people hating each other. 

OH! And I just LOVE LOVE LOVE how half of them can’t even give me the time of day, but when a male nursing student come along, they are all over them. Thank you. 

Sorry. End of rant. 

I had my last final exam of college. It feels wonderful being done with college. Now, all I have left is the pinning ceremony and graduation. 

I made it through nursing school! 

I went and picked up my cap and gown today. I can’t believe it’s almost done. I want to cry tears of joy. These last four years have been so difficult, stressful, and the hardest I’ve ever worked. I’m so glad it’s almost over. 

I just took another HESI, and at this rate, I’m never going to pass my NCLEX. I feel very hopeless right now. I’m serious when I tell people that I’m a bad test taker. Like, okay, give me a test where you state facts, and I’m GREAT at it, but when I have to use my facts in a scenario, I feel completely useless and stupid. I can never figure out what the BEST answer is. And this makes me so irritated and so depressed. I’m just in that mood where I want to give up now because I feel that I’m never going to get my license. 

I’m taking a course that teaches you test taking strategies after I graduate, and I’m really hoping that it helps me a great deal. If not, I just need some private tutor to sit me down and go over every single question with me, what answer I would choose, and why. Then explain it all because I overthink everything, and then I get confused and can’t make up my mind on what is the best answer. 

Today, I got an email from my clinical instructor telling me that I got a 100% on my LAST care plan ever. He said it was an excellent care plan, which made me SO happy because he wasn’t the easiest grader…considering I got an 80% on my last one. BUT also, I’ve never received a 100% on any care plan before, so this REALLY made my day. Rachel, I guess you are right… I must be really good at care plans! Hahahha. 

I just realized that I basically have a 5/6 day weekend for the rest of the semester depending on the random exams/presentations I have to attend. 

…It feels great. 

I didn’t realize that sitting through six hours of presentations can wear you out.