Even though I still get nervous going to clinical, I actually really enjoy it. I think I’ve done more in this clinical than I ever have in any of my other clinicals. And even though I get super nervous when my instructor and my nurse quiz me like crazy on everything, it’s actually nice because I’ve learned that I actually do know my stuff… sometimes you have to ask me very specific questions, but I know it and that itself is reassuring. Plus, I continue to learn more when I’m actually there physically watching my patient and the different body systems and how they connect finally makes sense.
The only downer is when you get a patient, and you know they either have a few months to live or they only have another day to live. :/
I hate it. I make a big deal out of the most simplest things. Create problems within my own head. Get all worked up over nothing. I wish I could just stop overthinking things, its only making things worse than it actually is. I need to learn how to stop overthinking the littlest things. Too bad I can’t help it.